Faithless World, 2014
cold river
woke up this mornin’
another lover by my side
i didn’t know what i was doin’
i didn’t know if i’d been taken for a ride
but all at once i had this vision in my head
i could love these nowhere cowboys every night
until i’m dead
so i
found me a highway
nothin’ but the wind for company
i left that cowboy lyin’
’cause gone’s the only place i like to be
and i’ve been thinkin’ about the things that i done wrong
livin’ my life just like the words
of a sad old country song
cold river wash these sins from my soul
take me back to where the secret waters flow
find me a hideaway where i can always go
cold river wash these sins
from my soul
and the night won’t find me sleepin’
all my stories turn to lies
need a way to stop believin’
my alibis
now i been ridin’
across this broken land of doubt and dreams
straight through the darkness
mornin’ sun come shine a light on me
i don’t know if that makes me right or makes me wrong
and i don’t know if that makes me weak or makes me strong
ooh but i just might run the answer down
here before too long
promise into darkness
weddin’ bells were ringin’
on that morning back in may
and the rings were tied with ribbons
to a pillow edged with lace
ooh but all the things they stood for
did not last the summer through
and all your love together
could not make those dreams come true
well tomorrow’s good for workin’
and you’re risin’ with the sun
the boss don’t want you pregnant
you just say what’s done is done
and now your big wide world’s come down to
just those shiny bands of gold
and the baby deep inside you
and a love grown cold
cold and old
that turned your promise into darkness
that turned your promise into darkness
well the walls close in around you
and the nights roll into years
you’re wishin’ for a love to stop the tears
wishin’ for a love to stop the tears
now the night she’s ripe with promises
just like your lover’s tongue
but the morning finds you thinkin’’bout
all the words unsaid and deeds undone
the sunrise fills the eastern sky
and the dew’s still on the grass
but the fields are dry and turned to brown
like the dreams that fade
fade so fast
lonesome and the wine
in a hotel bar alone
and a long long way from home
i know he’s got a woman back home a-waitin’
he’s on the phone to her in bed
and then the wall against his head
she’ll be hatin’ me when the sun comes up tomorrow
well i sit here on this stool
as he makes his way to courage
and then he makes his way to me and he sits on down
and then the fire lights his eyes
his stories turn to lies
he’ll be lovin’ me when the sun comes up tomorrow
but it ain’t him and it ain’t me
it’s just who we are tonight
in the lonesome and the glow of sweet red wine
and she’s oh so far away
what makes him run will make him stay
and the lonesome and the wine will make him mine
solo and chorus
now i been on the run for years
watchin’ mem’ries turn to tears
but lonesome’s only lonesome when you’re all alone
now i won’t rope you if you’re tied
but if you’re lookin’ to cross that line
i’ll be lovin’ you when the sun comes up tomorrow
but it ain’t you and it ain’t me
it’s just who we are tonight
in the lonesome and the glow of sweet red wine
and she’s oh so far away
what makes you run will make you stay
and the lonesome and the wine will make you mine
worthy girl
well i don’t want none of your lovin’
can’t stand you holdin’ me tight
i ain’t a worthy girl
i ain’t a worthy girl
and i don’t think that you believe me
but i don’t trust nothin’ no more
i ain’t a worthy girl
i ain’t a worthy girl
go on out and find someone
who’ll love you deep and true
give her all that you gave me and it’ll
prob’ly come right back to you
go on out and find yourself a worthy girl
well now don’t go sayin’ you’re sorry
you didn’t do a damn thing wrong
i ain’t a worthy girl
i ain’t a worthy girl
it just hurts too much to be loved like that
and i can’t take that pain
i ain’t a worthy girl
i ain’t a worthy girl
go on out and find someone with a
heart and soul that’s free
who’ll fall in love and trust in you
uncomplicatedly
go on out and find yourself a worthy girl
late november snow
oh the leaves are on the ground
i gotta let you go
i’ve already let you down
well i don’t want none of your lovin’
can’t stand you holdin’ me tight
i ain’t a worthy girl
i ain’t a worthy girl
go on out and find someone
who’ll love you deep and true
give her all that you gave me and it’ll
prob’ly come right back to you
but you got to leave this faithless world
leave me alone in my faithless world
go on out and find yourself a worthy girl
not me...not me
fools and lovers
in my life there are fools and there are lovers
and in the darkness i can plainly see
there ain’t nothin’ like a man who wants to give you what you need
and in my life the only fool is me
had me a man back in dallas
i was the only one he loved
told me he spent his nights a-worryin’
when i’d leave him all alone
but just the thought of him thinkin’ about me
well it was more than i could bear
he would have followed me around the world
i just left him standin’ there
in my life there are fools and there are lovers
and in the darkness i can plainly see
there ain’t nothin’ like a man who wants to give you what you need
and in my life the only fool is me
i drove on out to california
spent the night in some motel
stranger’s body curled up next to me
sleepin’ hard and feelin’ well
i told him that i had to leave before dawn
as if i had someplace to go
but there’s a darkness in my heart and on my mind
that it would trouble him to know
fool for you
walkin’ all night through the streets of houston
tryna find your house in the drizzlin’ rain
hundred thousand miles from my front door
got a burnin’ desire just to see you again
quarter in my pocket and if you’re not there
i’m’a leave you a message from a pay telephone
well i might get crazy and call it love
i’m a fool for you baby and i’m all alone
i’m a fool for you baby
i’m a fool for you baby and that’s a fact
i’m a fool for you baby
i’m a fool for you baby and i like it like that
once upon a time down deep in the winter
i guess we’d been drinkin’ just a bit too much
we closed the wooden nickel and you followed me home
baby all it took was a look and a touch
don’t misunderstand me now i know the game
’cause i played it for years with a thousand men
y’ain’t supposed to think about ’em when you’re done but
i’m a fool for you baby and i want you again
chorus
and if i find you with another lover
well you never said that you were free
oh and i wish that girl was me
walkin’ all night through the streets of houston
tryna find your house in the rain again
still a hundred thousand miles from my front door
i’m a fool for you baby and i’m givin’ in
three broken hearts
three broken hearts
in this lonely world tonight
three broken hearts
there’s yours
and mine
and the girl you left behind
in the smoky neon glow i answered when you called
a lonesome married man out on the town
we swore that she would never know as we began to fall
now she’s gone and you won’t come around
chorus
you say that you can’t love me now that she has gone away
you run to her and swear that you’ll be true
but her heart has been broken leavin’ me won’t make her stay
and losin’ you would only make me blue
santa fe railroad
his words on the wind floated up and away in the winter sky
boy just be glad that you’re here and stop asking me why
but i know there’s more to life than the swingin’ door and the 9 to 5
late at night i wonder what’s on the other side
and the santa fe railroad
rolls on down the line
hey on and on it’s going
that whistle blowing through my mind
it’s now or never stay here forever or leave this town
i’m tired of tryin’ to keep from flyin’ to stay on the ground
but on the horizon a new moon is risin’ maybe it’s time
to take that train to tucson ride on down the rails tonight
the fedex song
well they dispatched us late
we were waitin’ on trailers
that never came in through the snow
so we rolled like a line of white
buffalo down
to the stoplight and waited to go
well i backed in the dock
at my first stop a wood shop
and the wind stole the warmth from my face
forty damn boxes
right down my center aisle
at least now they’re out of my way
here’s your shit
sign my scanner
yeah, i know it looks upside down
but i been drivin’ all day
and them pickups won’t wait
and my baby’s not long for this town
well you told me you’d stay
if i quit my deliv’rin’
but i knew that i never could
’cause it gets in your soul
and under your fingernails
wrecks your back and leaves you no good
but i’ll blow thru my rezzies
ahead of the plowman
and i’ll bust up them driveways alone
and alone’s how i’ll be
when the boxes’re gone and i’m
headin’ back in through the snow
CREDITS
produced by Greg Schutte
recorded at Bathtub Shrine Recording Studio, Minneapolis MN
drums and bass on Promise into Darkness recorded by Mike Miheli in Mentor OH
pedal steel on Santa Fe Railroad recorded by Joe Carroll at Treehouse Productions, Austin TX
harmonica on The FedEx Song recorded by Mickey Raphael at Hicksville Studios, Nashville TN
truck noises recorded in FedEx Ground trucks 97632 and 86510, Shakopee MN
engineered by Mary Cutrufello
mixed by Rob Genadek at The Brewhouse Recording Studio, Minneapolis MN
mastered by Nick Landis at Terra Nova Mastering, Austin TX
all songs written by Mary Cutrufello, Cecil’s Pride Music BMI
except Santa Fe Railroad by Jeff Hughes, EMI Blackwood Music Inc
photography and album artwork by Bernadette Pollard
images made at Union Depot, St Paul MN
Mary Cutrufello uses GHS Strings
Mary Cutrufello: electric and acoustic guitars, vocals, bvox
GS Harper: bass, 3rd solo (guitar) on Fools and Lovers, bvox on Worthy Girl
Greg Schutte: drums, percussion, bvox on Fools and Lovers
Mark Lickteig: bvox on Cold River, Lonesome and the Wine, and Fools and Lovers
Andra Suchy: bvox on Cold River, Lonesome and the Wine, and Fools and Lovers
Zack Lozier: trumpet on Cold River
Daryk Narum: tenor and baritone saxophone on Cold River
Mike Miheli: drums on Promise into Darkness
Tommy Barbarella: B3 on Promise into Darkness, Worthy Girl, and Fool for You
Michael Perry and the Long Beds*: a capella vocals on Fools and Lovers
Kenny Wilson: banjo on Fools and Lovers
Mike Hardwick: pedal steel on Santa Fe Railroad
Mickey Raphael: harmonica on The FedEx Song
Joel Schaan: slide guitar on The FedEx Song
* The Long Beds are Billy Krause, Michael Perry, Chris Ramey, and Chuck Roll.
